I Cheated and It Feels So Good

Yes, I was cheating on the one person that has seen me through thick, thin and anything in between. I am surprised how easy it was, and how I don't feel remorse for it. Usually I am wracked with guilt and tend to stay away from anyone similar, but I couldn't hold it anymore. I think that it was over a long time ago, and he gave me the courage to admit it.

So last night, I told him that it was over. He took it well. It was time. We'll still see each other from time to time, on special days, and maybe if I need some comfort. We made a plan to see some movies together. I will always hold a special place in my heart for him, but I have moved on.

To him. The hottest hottie that ever hotted. Hot damn, I've never felt like this before. Well I have, but never like this. I realize now that the old boy was a school-yard crush. He has become my everything. In short I have become so obsessed in a short time. I want to be with him all the time. I was considering taking a day off from work to be with him. Crazy I know.

You know what though? He will never feel the same about me. He already has too many girls after him, so I will be content to view his escapades from afar. :(

So Harry, I'm sorry that it had to end this way, but I'm with Edward now. Stop looking at me sadly from the bookshelf. I saw you trying to remove your dust cover, so that I would be enticed back. Those tricks will never work on me! I have made my decision and hope you understand. Dirty did.