Monday, July 28, 2008

Can't Eat, Can't Sleep

I know I talk all the time on here about my IBS, and the fact that any and everything that I eat can force me onto the throne for days at a time, but I don't think I have ever mentioned the other health issue that I have.

A few years ago I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism. I was a pretty classic case, with the heart palpitations, and tremors. The one exception to this was that instead of losing tons of weight, I gained. Apparently, since my body was doing all of this overwork, I was eating to compensate. It happens to something like 1 in 1000. Of course I would be the exception. The thyroid lobe on the left side was enlarged to almost 10 centimeters, which is totally abnormal. A normal thyroid is about 2-3 centimeters in diameter.

After my doctor found the abnormal size and that the T-3 and T-4 hormones were overproducing from a blood test, I took 2 radioactive iodine treatments. Let me tell you, no picnic. You you have to sign for the pill that comes in a metal canister and are given it by someone wearing a haz-mat suit. You are sequestered for 3 days so that the radiation does not infect other people. By the way, it makes your urine is a bright orange color, just in case you wanted to know. Since that treatment about 4 years ago, everything has been fine.

Until now. Tomorrow, (actually today), I have to get a biopsy done on my left lobe thyroid. When I got my last check-up my T-3 and T-4 levels came back a bit askew, and when the doctor did a sonogram, she noticed a new growth on the left lobe. She thinks it may be cancerous. Normally, I don't freak out about these things, however when this doctor is concerned about something like this, I do. So, I haven't eaten or had a good nights sleep for the past 3 days. My bowels however have been on a rampage.

Looking at the big picture, I am not really worried, but a part of me in the back of my head is already making out my will and planning what I want my family to dress me in in my casket. Morbid enough for you?

Everything happens for a reason right? I can't help but think that this is the reason why the other company rescinded their offer.


KBear said...

keep us posted hun! good luck to you and I'll keep my fingers crossed and send good karma your way!!!!


Jadeny said...

Good luck. I know this will sound totally hokey, but be positive. You are healthy and will always be. Positive thinking really can work wonders. Seriously i know how ridiculous that sounds, but a friend of mine pushed that book The Secret on me and although it is written in a cheesy way, the theory behind it is great. And it works!

As for medicine that requires HAZMAT suits...WTF!?

Anonymous said...

Wow, I'd be losing sleep and thinking the worst too. That's scary. I am sorry that you're going through all this stress. When will you find out for sure? I'll keep you in my thoughts.

~Penny~ said...

Can I have your ipod? Will you will that to me?

Just kidding! Good luck. My mama has to do that too, with the hazmat thingy.

In the bigger picture, it will be ok :)

**Liz** said...

Good luck to you. It will be okay.

My husband used to work for a company that deliver medicines like that. He didn't need to wear a suit because he would just drive the stuff around town, but he did have to wear a card thingy on his shirt pocket that told him if he got too much of the radiation.

Jatorade said...

Think positive...I used to always say "hope for the best but assume the worst" but eventually that stress led to an ulser. Be positive and try not to loose too much sleep as that won't help at all.

Also, I've worse not knowing. Even if it is something not so good, at least you know and you can start getting better. Right?

Good luck

rage said...

I have faith that everything will be okay with you girl.

It is better that you're getting this all taken care of now.

We are all here for you girl if you need to vent.


Mrstx said...

I am with rage...I absolutely have faith that everything will be okay. Just force a smile on your face and think like you are okay. Keep us posted please!