Thursday, November 07, 2013


My dad had a stroke today.  The worst thing in this world is to see someone who is usually the rock, be so vulnerable and helpless.  

I want my daddy back.

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

So It Begins Again

My job search that is.  Three years ago when I took this job, I felt like it was going to be a permanent place for me.  A place where I could learn and grow and there was plenty of opportunity for advancement.  

Three years later, it hurts my heart to say that the idealism I had about this job is fading fast. We recently got a new CEO who is more interested in money than in client based services. That does not bode well for me since my job is all about client care.  

With the restructuring, we lost my awesome Program Director, who hired me and really allowed me to flourish in my position.  I was traveling to Washington, DC for business and learned so much about legislation.  I really found my wings.

We've laid off 5 staff people in the past 3 months and need to lay off 5 more by March 1st.  Whoever is left at that point will be absorbed into a federal welfare contract that is against everything I stand for.

I've been reaching out to my contacts and networking like a boss, but my heart is really not in it.  I definitely don't want to be on this ship when it goes down, but it is sinking fast. 

Since 2012 was the crappiest year ever, I want to make sure that 2013 is positive. I will use this as a catalyst for change and growth.  

PS:  how many times can I use growth in a blog post? :/